Infatuation.

I'm outraged. WHAT IS THIS? What the hell are you trying to tell me? You have not spoken a BEAT for the longest time and today you decide to flood me with a thousand thumps repeatedly.

I like you.
I don't like you.
I want my space.
I want you to be there.
I miss you.
I despise the thought of you.
I want to hug you.
Keep a distance away from me.
Why aren't you talking?
SHUT UP.
I wish you'd appear at my locker.
What the hell are you doing at my locker.
You're cute.
Why am I even this close to you?

WHAT THE F*** ?! :( I wish I didn't feel at all. I wish I had no emotions. I want to be emotionless so I won't have to worry on such a thing like you. I HATE IT. You have no idea. I'M JUST NOT READY OKAY. I'm not ready to let anyone have a PEEK OF MY HEART. It's behind close corridors and will STAY THAT WAY. I don't want distractions from school or church. I don't want to have to choose you over my friends. I don't want to talk on the phone with you every night. I don't want to spend my weekends with you. I want to be independent I'M JUST FINDING EXCUSES, but I do care about you and I do like you. :/

I just ... I want you to go away, but of course you're not... and I can't go away either. It's complicated... I don't even understand myself sometimes.

I'm passing up on opportunities and great people. I'm sorry.