Thump, thump, STOP!

It's ironic... You criticize me so I won't turn to the object that destroys me, but the only thing it does is pushes me closer to it. You officially broke one of the very few remaining pieces of my heart. I'm slowly losing sight of who I am and why I'm still here. I'm aching so much for some way of escape. A route to detour the pain my heart feels. I want to feel so numb to the point I can't even recognize that I'm thinking or something. Please, if anyone else wants to just give up, please do it now. Do it all at once, so I can let go and move on.